Hey everyone,
so yes, I have been MIA here. The holidays have been rough, but I will be vague cause its the internet:
1) The job search has been brutal and wearing on me.
2) I am not a fan of the holidays. This is not up for debate. I respect if you like/love the holidays but I have my reasons and frankly I tire of giving my opinions and thoughts and everyone tears me down about it. no more. I said what i said.
3) dealing with stuff at home.
with 2026 around the corner, I did/was planning on a roundup of the best in music and games, I hope to still do that will do my best.
tomorrow I hope/plan to have the usual to kick off the month with whats streaming for January, my picks, etc. Note: until I have a regular job, I did cut a few streaming services, didnt have many to cut but I usually cover from the services I have, ocassionally ones I’m not subbed to. This month all the recently added from Shudder and such were all Christmas horror and not for nothing I am not a fan of christmas horror. Winter horror fine but holiday horror like Christmas I can do without.
My goals for 2026, I hope to grow this blog along with my other platforms, into a postive community of like-minded people that enjoy horror games/films, goth and metal with as much passion and love that I do. but with that I can do without the following people:
If you’re a gatekeeper of the space, like calling non goths “normies” or anything like that dont need to be here. who cares how someone is dressed or not dressed? Not everyone can be full goth 24/7, esp if they live in a bad area, like I do, budget reasons, unable to DIY/thrift (I swear if I hear someone say DIY your stuff one more time I will lose it) maybe its a post for another time, but i definitely cant be full goth/metalhead where I currently live. it has nothing to do with “who cares what they think” its a safety issue as I was harrassed really badly for wearing of all things A VOLTRON SHIRT. but i digress.
the metal community also has this problem not gonna bring up calling people “posers” but the whole elitist thing. I HATE THAT. “its not TRVE KVLT” fuck all the way off. people on both sides are quite draining hence why i am careful who i speak to, hang out with, people should bring joy in your life, not be a big emotional drain.
I want joy, happiness amazing good things in my life not just cause it will be a new year, but because I am not meant to struggle. this has been a rough year, getting laid off, hardly having interviews, getting rejected left and right and receving some of the most unprofessional job rejection emails, dealing with home matters, and depression and anxiety, i have had my fill. I need a good year. I need good years.
Here’s hoping 2026 is much better than 2025, and things get better for those that have also had a rough year like myself. hopefully the job market and economy get better we can find work, prices normalize and people will get along. but in the meantime, I have a burning desire to be creative in my later years, hence streaming, this blog and future endeavors.
Thanks for being here, reading my ramblings and see you tomorrow BE SAFE CELEBRATING!
